"To journey without being changed is to be a nomad. To change without journeying is to be a chameleon.To journey and be transformed by the journey is to be a pilgrim."- Mark Nepo
These days I am waking up with the sun. I feel her rays brush across my face through my hot pink mosquito net and I am eager to get out of bed and embrace the day. I have been in Nicaragua for the past three weeks leading a 200-hr teacher training (more on that in a later post). Although I am teaching eight plus hours a day, being in Nica has invited me to slow down and replaced my armor of routine with the unexpected.
Here the rhythm of Nature rules. The clouds hang low lessening the distance between body and sky. The Divine feels very near. The sun is my alarm clock and the moon, my nightlight.
Rather than being inundated by the sounds of traffic, I hear the voice of the ocean serenaded by the wind. Sometimes the ocean’s voice is LOUD- She has so much to say and demands to be acknowledged as the waves pummel against the shore. In other moments, She whispers-as if She has a secret you need to lean in close to discover. She is unapologetic and always herself. Beneath the surface, She is calm. She holds immense mysteries inside of her heart that we can explore if we are willing to plunge into the depths and trust we will surface and be carried.
Through my time here, living on the edge of the ocean, I am noticing within myself when I swim against the tide and flail wildly, the times I quiet my authentic voice when I should speak up, when I only dive deep enough as is comfortable-worried I will lose myself into the unfathomable, and those sweet, fleeting moments when I have faith, allow myself to be held, and float.
Nature is constantly calling us back to ourselves, whether through the ocean, a catch in our throats, a burning in our belly, or perhaps the words of a stranger.
May I be quiet enough to listen and understand Her wisdom; May I be strong enough to drop into my heart and know my soul; May I trust Her calling and know that with only a few kicks, I can just. Float...